Just Take a Deep Breath

so lately i have been really overwhelmed with my crazy schedule and last night i had a little "break down". as i spewed everything out to my mom, tears just continued to flow. and to make a long story short, my mom eventually left my room for a minute and hailey came and sat in my bed with me.

she gave me a hug just as any other almost 5 year old would do.
but she didnt let go.
she just held onto me. and that just made me cry all over again. and harder than the first time. hailey rubbed my back as i sobbed into her little shoulders and held her tightly. she whispered continually: "its okay, chelsea. its okay." finally she pulled away. i expected her to go back in her bed or something, but instead, she placed her hands on my shoulders and said, "Okay, just take a deep breath. Like this [and she demonstrated how to take the deep breath]."

I know that may not seem worth a blog, but that made a difference in my attitude for the rest of the night. I am so thankful for what i have here... my sister Hailey means the world to me.

be expecting a new blog soon...

thanks for your time
-chelsea

i want you.

i see you as your scars grow deep
i watch as your pain engulfs you
as relentless dreams haunt your sleep
while you try to cover the truth

your fingers cover your grieved ears
drowning out all motivation
the thoughts of yours consumed with fear
you cry with no hesitation

the small tears turn into rivers
blood flows from your perilous knife
pain, not worth what it delivers
you wish you could come back to life.



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hope. cant you see My hope??
i can set you free!
i can split the chains and ropes!
i am your victory!

just take my hand!
i know its not fluent and painless...
but its better than this land.
wouldnt you like to be stainless?

i want you.
i want you to be mine.
i want you to want me.
i want you to let me shine.
i want you, child.
i want you.
what else could i say?
for nothing else this day
could ever describe
the way i want you.
just take My hand....

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